hoookayyy. whoa.

so it finally hit me tonight. i was working late, and around 8:30 pm i realized i haven't stayed this late by myself at the office since i got here and had nowhere to go. nowhere to stay. no home to call my own. i was extremely delirious because i have not slept for even a moment since saturday morning around 11 am, which was after the powernap from being woken up at 9, when i hadn't gone to sleep until 4:30 am. i'm really delirious. did i say that already? so i was looking around the office, thinking, how is it january? how is next week the last week i'll even be able to come to that office and stay there til g-d knows when all by myself. what am i gonna do with my life?

i kept working and tried not to get sad or distraught or bitter... and then i found a new website. see i was looking for a certain image to use, and i finally found what i wanted, and kept clicking around. and i found a website that advertises job openings in custom invitation companies, for greeting card designers, etc. that was really exciting. then i ate cereal and strawberries that miraculously had not yet molded. now it's bedtime. night night in the big city.....